It's my birthday today. I don't bring this up to get a happy birthday Ben from you readers. I bring it up more for the fact that I am starting a new year of life. For some reason every time there is a new start to a new year people look back and think on the things that they want to improve on. Well, for me its simple. I've always talked about blogging. I've even experienced things that I think...hey you should blog about this.

For example there are things that you go through that just leave you thinking, I have got to tell people about this. Like the time knew my thread count in college. Just because I KNEW what my thread count was doesn't make me gay. Of the fact that from time to time things come out of my mouth that can be misinterpreted. Also as a side note a pink cake for my birthday does not equate me with liking all things pink, thus making me less of a man. Needless to say that there are things worthy of being blogged about in a person's life, however, I have yet to dive into this whole blogging thing. Like I said, I'm going to try and embrace the calling of the blog.

To my two faithful readers I'm hoping this new chapter of my life will keep you well informed of what is happening in the mind and life of balla ben.

I was talking with my roommate today, about nothing in particular, when all of a sudden it hit me. It wasn't something that just all of a sudden came out of nowhere, because I had come to this realization before. However, it could have been the significance of the factor that finally weighed in within the walls of my heart.

How can someone do that? How can they forget the most important day of their life? For some people forgetting an anniversary, or something like that may seem important. Yet, I'm talking about something more; something bigger. Others may think the most important day of their life is when they graduated this college with this degree, but for a Christian that day is drastically changed to one that most people might not even notice. It is noticable when a person turns 16 because they are now legal to drive, or when a person gets married, as signified by the ring they wear.

But for the Christian, it is much different. True for some an outward change is noticed, however this is not always true. It is typically much more implicit, and you must be close to the person to notice the change.

By now, I'm sure it's clear to you fellow bloggers that I can't remember what day I was baptized. I can't tell you about my first "marriage" day. You do understand that your baptism is a wedding ceremony of sorts. Just like love in this humanly realm is a choice, so is love in the spiritual realm.

I can't wait for the day, to choose to love someone forever. I'm actually terrified of it, however I'm anxiously awaiting that fateful day. I know I will remember it after it happens. I know I'll be different in one way or another, and I know that people will be able to tell that I'm happy because of my situation.

I only wish I would have realized the importance of my first wedding day sooner. I know that when I was baptized it was important, and I knew what it was for, yet I know I was not changed or transformed in any way. I had not chosen to truly love Christ. For if I had, a change would have taken place, marking that day in my mind. As of right now, I don't even know what year of school I was in for sure. I can guess, but that is all it would be.

Welp, for those of you out there, choose to love your wife (if you have one), and choose to love your Christ (because you do have one). Be transformed by the awesome power of an unconditional love.